Emotions & Photons

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I love him , we got him the special paper and pens that you draw with that only work on THAT paper. And we did this WITH NO MESS!!

Send me good Karma please.  I went on a job interview today at the hospital. It would be a fantastic job with fantastic hours! They will make their decision and give me a call later this week. I hope they choose me. My mom works in the same area.. literally… 15 feet away!  In other news…. nothing else is up that I can share online. Lots of personal stuff. But thats all. I may make a new blog… away from my ex…I am pretty sure he knows this link… which is why I can no longer tell you all what has been up lately. *sigh* other than job stuff, which well everyone knows about …and is not new news ….

Some days I am strong.  A lot stronger than other days.  Then there are the days when I feel like curling up in a ball and crying.  I am getting over (erasing) Andy from my mind.  I can’t stand to think of him. And some days I am forced to.  When I fill out my medicaid info. I have to answer questions about the “absent” father. Thats how they refer to him, because he doesn’t live out here. It’s frustrating.  At least Calvin will have medicaid until I find a job with benefits. I wanted to make sure he was covered so he can still go to the doctor while I am searching.

I am still searching for a job. Last week I applied for over 50 jobs.  I got a few call backs but no luck so far.  I am asking my family for help right now, because I cannot pay my bills. I am about out of money. I just sent out some of my medical bills with the last of my money. But I am hopeful this week that I will find a job. My brother returns to college tomorrow, which will make interviews harder to get to, because I will have to wait until he gets home so he can watch my son. At least he doesn’t have very late classes.

My friends have been emotionally supportive, and I am thankful for that.  I probably would have cracked by now if I didn’t have such wonderful friends. My friend Mike’s Mom just sent Calvin quite a few new outfits! It was amazing to recieve such a thing!  Mike is an ex boyfriend from High School. Some people have told me, why don’t you apply at walmart or some place like that….and I HAVE… with no call backs… With my luck they will call once I already have a job.

But if anyone can, keep me in your prayers for a job. I am not christian..or catholic, but I do believe in sending good vibes (good energy) toward someone who needs it. And I feel I really need the extra goodness right now…

Lots of stuff going on, trying to find a job… find a day care, find a pediatrician. So much paper work …

I took the day off today, I needed to relax. And today I enjoyed the company of my son…

He is just too cute

So I am collecting Recipes! I want to have more meals I can cook for my family! I am collecting recipes and sharing them with the world. Its brand new (only 3 days old) but you can check it out at http://foodaroundtheworld.wordpress.com/

And you can follow me on Twitter @RecipeBlogger

And all Recipes can be emailed to me at FoodAroundTheWorldRecipes@gmail.com <–  if you have photos of your meal experience with the recipe please send those too.

I will still be BLOGGING here but thats my food blog

Got a vegetarian receipe or one that is healthy in mind?  I want to try this one I found on a penne box (i am looking for new meals now a days) I find regular meals have been a bore lately.

Anyone have any they would like to share? Please give details on how to make the item if you do want to share

I am seriously thinking about deleting my social networking accounts…. I just need time to think…..

Should I ? Or shouldn’t I ?

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I am still looking for a job. But I am happy no matter what, because I have my little boy with me. My mom and him are so close! My son really loves her, he actually would rather be near her at times! That’s cute though, I am glad he took to her so quickly.

I have been applying everywhere! I do really need a job because I cannot pay my bills through this month, but I am trying to look on the bright side of things. I have been faxing everyone, calling, emailing, filling out applications, answering questions.

I have a lead on a theatre job but…. my old bosses are holding me back. Basically until all of my old bosses fill out a reference paper and fax it back to the theatre… I can’t get hired….! So I am waiting on them!

The theatre job would be nice, maybe they will hire me on as a manager (the gm said he didn’t know if the DM would let him bc she generally likes to hire with in the company.) So cross your fingers for me.

Oh and I am helping my mom lose weight! She has lost about 5 lbs since I have been here!!! (I will give Calvin the credit because she has to chase him around the house with me now)

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I generally don’t take photos of my self anymore. I just always have the camera pointed at my son, so I am catching up on the ‘baby and me’ photos. Here is Calvin and I (photo taken yesterday).

I am still on the job hunt. Hopefully I will find something very soon!

Happy End of the Year! We have about 12 more hours (mountain time zone), before the New Year starts. This past year has been full of ups and downs for many of us. I know many of you have struggled with new families, jobs, debt, and health. I have lost two friends this past year, and I wish they could be here right now celebrating the new year with us. But it is time to move forward, remember those who have passed, but also look ahead to this new year. 2010 can be a start of wonderful things.

Always leave room for hope. Happiness will soon follow.

I can say this year has been a really emotional year for myself. Most of you know by now that I have moved to Albuquerque, NM. Andrew and I split up. And I still have a lot a head of me. But the split up and the move has brought around so many true friends, people who care, family I haven’t seen in years! I am so thankful to know people like you all. I am thankful for the hearts you all have. I am thankful Calvin will know love like this. Thank you so much, everyone for your support, love, and devotion to being great friends and family.

I don’t want to babble on too long about the year ending, but I do have to make one important note…

PLEASE DO NOT DRINK AND DRIVE.

If you need a ride, call a cab, walk, call a friend, or family. And don’t let it stop there, Also don’t let friends drink and drive. I would like to see everyone and hear that you all had a wonderful New Years eve tomorrow So stay safe, be smart, and have fun.

Lots of Love: Your Friend Donna